Back in 2015 I began this blog as a place to share my original web novel. Throughout the years, the content which gets posted has changed, people who have been around have differed and we just generally get screwed over by my lack of consistency.
I’m currently working part time, a full time university student and attempting to write my other original novel (I Have Unlimited Wive Slots) and release that on a consistent once a week basis. But, “The Harem was a Forced Goal” has been on indefinite hiatus in this time. And it hasn’t been finished. So, what do I do about that?
Other World’s Monster Breeder has been done by someone else, so I don’t really care about that anymore. It was too much effort, too much time out of my week. Writing also takes time, but it is more enjoyable for me.
I want to keep the blog full of content, with a minimum of one post a week, even if it’s not a novel, perhaps just my ramblings. If I did that, and you’d be happy for that to happen, it’d be great if you could comment and talk.
But, beyond that, what do you think I should do? Let’s talk about it.
One, a reason to betray.
Two, a reason to belay.
Three, a reason to delay.
Four, a reason to just pray.
Five, a person walking slow.
Six, a person with skin aglow.
Seven, rocking to and fro.
Eight, a demon from down below.
Nine, a struggle to go on.
Ten, I can think of none.
Eleven, I’ve given up.
One thousand, Yeah, that’s enough.
Staying motivated for anything is hard. Whether it be writing, learning or simply enjoying a game, the ability to focus on one thing and one thing alone is difficult. When did this become the norm? Why is it I can’t spend more than a few days trying to fix the problems I have?
I need money, I need food. I need time. I need to take care of myself. There are things I need to do yet don’t do them. It is as though I torture myself accidentally? If I were good, I’d post daily. Yet, I can’t seem to bring myself to write every day. I can’t bring myself to change.
The poem above is a representation of the desire to do something, then skipping over lazily until the end. We can’t do that in real life. If we want to get to the result, we have to take the journey. If we don’t take the journey, we’ll never end up at the end. We’ll always stay at the beginning.
It’s time for this to stop. I must take the journey, or else I’ll never reach the end.
For what it’s worth, I lied about the title. 😛
So recently I’ve been thinking (A dangerous past time, I know), but I’ve come to a conclusion that I lack a vital skill for education and work. That is, the skill of self-discipline. I am privileged to own many things, have access to internet (even if it is Australia’s ADSL2…), but it is possible that having access to these things is one of the problems causing me to lack the ability to control myself to an extent.
That is, due to having so many things to do, I don’t need to do a certain thing to entertain my brain. I can simply go, ‘huh, I’m no longer interested in this. Why don’t I do that instead. And therein lies the problem. With the ability to avoid something, without the skill of self-discipline, you will avoid it. There’s a mechanism working in the brain that does this, I am fairly sure but this isn’t an essay that requires references (though I may write something along those lines in the future).
So I am going to have to think long and hard about how to train myself to have this skill. I hope you appreciate this post.
Check it out! Its actually decent. 🙂