So recently I’ve been thinking (A dangerous past time, I know), but I’ve come to a conclusion that I lack a vital skill for education and work. That is, the skill of self-discipline. I am privileged to own many things, have access to internet (even if it is Australia’s ADSL2…), but it is possible that having access to these things is one of the problems causing me to lack the ability to control myself to an extent.
That is, due to having so many things to do, I don’t need to do a certain thing to entertain my brain. I can simply go, ‘huh, I’m no longer interested in this. Why don’t I do that instead. And therein lies the problem. With the ability to avoid something, without the skill of self-discipline, you will avoid it. There’s a mechanism working in the brain that does this, I am fairly sure but this isn’t an essay that requires references (though I may write something along those lines in the future).
So I am going to have to think long and hard about how to train myself to have this skill. I hope you appreciate this post.